"Why could you betray me Miko? what is my fault for 1 year we shared? what?! Miko tell me! "I can no longer withstand the pain of overwhelming in the chest. I do not care if he thinks I'm a whiny woman. I cried in front of him because I could no longer tolerate his actions this time. Miko, my beloved who has graced my days for 1 year now betrayed by another woman. I do not know who she was, I did not know him, but Miko himself who admitted to me that he had let me down and asked me to end our relationship because he felt it was not possible to continue with all of this.
"I'm really sorry Sharon, but I can not be with you anymore. I'm sorry ... "Miko did not give me a chance to speak, he immediately left the living room of my house that contains only the two of us. I burst into tears when I heard my door closed. Miko is really gone, it will not come back again, he was serious with his words. I have been a fool to believe it. It's all my fault and I deserve it.
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I just stay at home along with Bi Lastri and Mas Seno. My parents were always busy taking care of business out of town or overseas. Even so I never felt lonely because they both are always entertaining and keep me company. Of course, because Bi Lastri and Mas Seno has been nursing me from infancy until now I'm a student, I still need them.
When Miko decided our relationship I was told everything to them. I cried in the arms of middle-aged women Bi Lastri it. He stroked my hair and soothe me like his own son. Although Michael did not love me but I'm fortunate to still have those who love me. I promise not to be dropped because of him.
"Loh non Sharon Keith why change clothes anyway? Same host under the mistress already waiting for dinner from earlier, non Hurry yes after that non straight down. "Said Bi Lastri been back and forth to my room to remind me repeatedly.
"Yes yes, say the same mama and papa tell ya waiting bi. I briefly fell again, would be ready first. "Then I say shut the door and locked it after bi Lastri out.
I guess I can not keep my promise, I think I'd rather die than not be with Miko. I could not live without it. Myself that without its presence, without a cheery smile, and laugh jokes. Already 1 month I took leave college because I was not yet able to attend classes in college since Miko left eye.
And now mommy and daddy just got back this morning from Manado. Somehow their return home could not cheer me up is being shaken.
I'm sorry mom, dad ... I'm not a good boy, I guess I can not have dinner together again with you, forever ... goodbye ...
I swallowed a lot of sleeping pills in my room that night dresser drawer. I intend to end this pain. I'm sure after I take all the sleeping pills I would feel calm and the pain was not going to show up again. A few minutes later I felt my body numb, I fell to the floor and lay seizures.
From outside the door I could still hear mama and daddy who kept knocking on the door and shouted in dismay. I heard them asking for help on Mas Seno to break down my door.
No ... mom, dad .. you do not enter ... I do not want you to cry over a silly boy you are ...
My eyes began to fade, slowly closed and I do not know what happened after that. I think I'm dead? Yes, that's good! Plan worked! I said to myself.
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My wish did not come true. My parents took me to hospital in time so I was saved. I was unconscious for 2 months, and now I was out of the hospital. mother and my father looked shocked by this incident. They found me crying so I came out of a coma. I really like the rebellious child. I sinned against them both and especially to God. How can I attempted suicide just because a man? God forgive me ..
After that incident my parents decided to take me to London. They want me to forget the things that happened in Jakarta and start a new life sheet. I agree, although I know there later they also are not always present to accompany me, but at least I was in a new place and I wish I could forget my bad memories.
The next day I, mother and father immediately flew to London. I'm definitely going to miss Bi Lastri and Mas Seno, but this is the best way for me. Miko had not been given the news at all since the last time we met, but I still want to be friends with him, nomernya also is no longer active. I think it is time for me to forget it.
Arriving in the capital city of England that I went straight to bed because my body lay Jet lag is whack. Yes, this was my new home, a new place and new people that will fill my life.
Mom came into my room and I was lying in bed. "Sharon, you break a lot of ya, Mom and Dad had to go to Manchester to meet with business associates. If you need anything just ask at Nanny Grace. Oh yeah, he also can speak Indonesian. "
"Yes, you two be careful." I said, pulling the rose-patterned bedcover.
Alone again ... always like this, and I'm getting used to it.
I lived in London just until I feel better, I did not really move to this country. I took off my first year in college on the grounds of healing therapy. The term "not the most convenient place from home" that's true. Although living in London, I still miss Indonesia and I'll be right back until I had set my heart.
"Sharon, do you need anything?" Said someone from outside my room with the Indonesian language that is not too fluent. Yes, it was Nanny Grace.
"No, this time I want to sleep alone. Thank bid Nanny. "Replied loudly.
"Okay. Adequate rest. "He said.
I do not feel tired anymore, it is now felt bored. I opened my laptop and plug the modem into the usb port. It's been 3 months I did not open my social networking accounts, there may be the latest thing that I do not know.
"I'm sorry I left you, now you must hate me. Never mind, it was just what I wanted because I did not deserve to get a very nice lady like you .. I'm just a wimp, I'm so sorry sir .. "3 months ago.
When opening my facebook account, that's the first thing I see on the porch. It is written status Miko 3 months ago. Curious because I opened profiling overall. For some reason my heart beats faster 2 times than before. Miko facebook so look plastered on the front complete both my eyes I can not say at all. I just bite my lower lip, hold so that I do not cry when I read all of his status.
"Looks like my hopes are gone, if indeed he had forgotten me and happy along with everyone else, I will try to be happy." 15 minutes ago.
"This made me miserable, I could not anymore .." 1 day ago.
"I hope he does not open a facebook account, if so, I really would be very embarrassed." 2 days ago.
"It's so cold without you by my side, I'm sorry to hurt such an angle like you. You are my everything. "4 days ago.
"You must be hate me so much." 2 weeks ago.
"If only i could tell you the truth, would you still love me?" 1 month ago.
Really?! what you actually wrote all of this status Miko? but why? What excuse do this to me? apparently you never really want to leave me?! then why did you do that?? I was not able to withstand the hot liquid out of my eyes, I felt very happy after reading all the status, but I also feel sad because first he did not want to be honest to me.
Some time ago I was crying that I realized that my trip to London was to erase my bad memories. Yes! I had to forget Miko! Anyway it's too late for me if now I would like to wish she still loves me. Of the status he wrote 15 minutes ago concluded that she would forget me sooner or later, and I had to give it.
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Only 1 month I was in London and I decided to go back to Indonesia. I think I've had my heart set correctly. I'm sure there is no more feelings left for Miko, a former lover who had left. Even though I know the truth, but it was too late. It's all over ...
"Sharon, are you really leaving? please just stay with me .. "The tall man held me tightly. Yes, he is Kieran, I knew him during a visit to a public library in London when I was feeling down after learning the truth about Michael. He worked there, he asked me acquainted and dinner. I actually started a little like handsome men brown-haired, but I have to go. I had to continue my studies in Indonesia, which has been abandoned because of the events that happened recently.
I loosened his arms slowly. "I want it, but i can not, i have to go now. Do not be sad Ki, I'll visit you right away. Goodbye .. "I said with a sweet smile to Kieran.
I was getting ready to pick up a medium sized travel bags and large suitcases. But when I would bend my body to go from there Kieran suddenly grabbed my wrist and pulled it so that my body rotates 180 degrees. My face was right in front of his face and is very close, I looked at her blue eyes full of question marks. Kieran is getting closer to his face towards me, he bowed his head slightly and then in an instant he landed a soft kiss on my lips that made me unable to say anything.
Kieran releasing his grip and said. "Sorry if you do not like it, but that's our farewell kiss. I'll be missing you Sharon .. "
"Thank you Kieran." I said and walked away from there. Kieran, he's the only man who can make me hesitate to go out of London, but I still have to go back to Indonesia. I will not forget Ki. Thank you for being on my life ...
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As I have moved into my seat on the plane, for some reason I want to open the phone and look at my facebook in case there is someone who wrote something on my wall.
Sure enough I thought, it turns out there is one wall-me-me. He's my high school friends used to Flavia:
"Oh my God! I really miss you Sharon!! It's been so long, let's meet up dear. "6 hours ago.
"Please turn off your cell phone Because The plane will be taking off in a few minutes." Said the flight attendant who warned me because it looks cool still holding tiny objects.
"Oh, ok." I replied curtly.
Quickly once the plane will take off. I was rushed to log off from my facebook, but I stumbled back to the porch. And it made me jump! I just saw Miko status update:
"Going back to Indonesia from London, i can not stand my dad anymore. I need to meet you! I have to tell you the truth .. hope you could understand. "Just now.
What! turns out he had been there in London?! and now he is back to Indonesia?!
It was really shocking for me. I stood up and looked for the figure of Miko. I sat in the middle, so I had to check the front and rear in order to find it. But while I was not looking to get Miko in the front row and rear seats. With a sigh I went back to my seat.
I was a little surprised because when I returned to my seat I found a big bag belonging to someone there for me. Whereas before I did not see the bag, suddenly it coming.
I sat still, closed his eyes and put the headphones set on loud rock music. Somehow I felt a bit disappointed because they could not find Miko and I should not have to look for the man, because I have to forget it.
Plane finally took off, only a matter of seconds, but the person sitting next to me did not come. What he had never been on a plane before? I muttered to myself.
"Excuse me miss .." said the man with the breath that rumbles like a ghost chase. Yes, definitely the man!
"It's ok, no ..." when I removed the headphones and opened my eyes, I did not move and did not move my lips looking at the person.
"Sharon?" He said in a tone half disbelief.
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It's an unexpected gift to me. I'm a single plane with Miko and our seats were together. Even so I did not open my mouth. I locked my lips tightly and tried to be indifferent to it.
"I'm sorry Sharon ... Now I will explain everything to you. I hope you can understand. "Said Miko who opened the conversation in the middle of our silence than voice sounded a bit noisy aircraft.
I do not look at him, I just reply to his words. "I already know it all, I've read all the status. Nothing else needs to be explained. "
"There are not you know Sharon and I have to say. Please let me explain it to you. "Pleading tone that it makes my heart melted. Apparently I have not been able to arrange my heart, apparently I still love it.
"Say what you want to say." I said hoping sounded cool.
"I left because my father forced me to learn to take care of his company, which he did because he thought I was the only heir to the company that ideal. He did not want my brother Tommy who became heir to her company because Tommy will only worsen the company's financial situation is shaky at this time. Therefore, I reasoned that I had Menkent you, but in reality I do not ever do that Sharon. I love you so much, but on the other hand I could not refuse my daddy. Sharon please try to understand my situation, I never intend to hurt your feelings a bit da ... "Miko kept talking and it makes my ears hot. I can not forgive him for not least because the reason is very strong as it is.
I also cut out words. "Then why did you come back? I see your status, you said you did not hold with your father. "Now I'm starting to look at him, I ventured to look at his face. He has not changed, still the same as before ... very handsome ..
Miko bowed for a moment, he returned to grasp my hand and said. "London is actually not finished my business in Sharon, but I've had enough of a sense of guilt that continues to haunt me. I want you to know everything, and I do not want you to hate me because I love you. "
"Do not talk anymore. I love you Miko. And I could never hate you. "Miko I hugged the spot. I think I missed all with this guy. Even if I wanted to, I could not hate Miko. I'm confused as to why can be like that. But one is for sure I am very happy to be together again.
Kau adalah segalanya bagiku, tidak ada yang akan dapat menggantikan Mu dari hatiku ...
Kau adalah dunia ku ...
Kau adalah mata ku ...
I Love You Forever ..
I publish for you darling mira
